The other morning I was left at a cafe
called Thierry, I wasn’t going to buy anything there (as I’d been watching my wallet) but merely to enjoy my good friend Elliot and his mother for a breakfast meetup before heading to the next cafe to begin my work. Janet was very kind and offered to buy me a morning cake. Right after I made my order I was informed they had to leave in a hurry. I started to reflect on the fact that I will be moving out soon and setting onto a new adventure. Where will I end up? How will it happen? Whatever will it be?” Just then I looked over and saw an architectural magazine called “ARTRAVEL” laying there on the shelf next to my table. I leafed through some lovely pictures of Parisian design until I arrived on the following page:
It reads: ”The love of risk: there are those who look for the road of comfort and others who jump into the void and while in mid-air calculate the method of their landing.”
I have to say, this is a perfect anecdote for my life. It’s the way I best succeed. One moment things look uncertain, up in the air, chaotic – even dangerous and the next moment it all flips around and lines up in the most cohesive and excellent way. I realized that for a large part of my life I have tried to be “responsible” in the eyes of my friends, family and other people by justifying my completely random yet effective methods for allowing things happen in the way I do. Also, that when I have attempted to make things work by planning and controlling, how it simply just fails. I have had things happen in a way that would be unbelievable to most people, sometimes I barely believed them myself. Often it’s all been about being at the right place at the right time – in the most uncanny fashion. My good buddy Tone says “Don’t take credit man, it’s not you.” He’s right, I couldn’t possibly imagine how to orchestrate these unfoldings – I can only allow them to be.
I remembered to recognize my strengths instead of trying to fix my weaknesses and indeed I am the second of the two aforementioned personality types. For me, cohesion and wellness happen as a result of a single decision that I make at any given moment:
“Relax, do what feels good and watch it unfold.”
